Recently I have been alternately avoiding and pondering this quote: "God is not in the business of tweaking. He is in the business of transformation." (from Rediscover Jesus by Matthew Kelly)
I want to be transformed. I am tired. I know, through prayer and the affirmation of those who know and love me that this is my time to be transformed. In ways I cannot fully explain the time really is now! It is partly because of my life situation; I am wife and mom who has time on her hands, who works part time, who has the freedom of adult children along with a husband who does laundry and grocery shops. After years of juggling career, school schedules, doctor appointments, sports, taking care of a home, and, and, and, you know all the rest, you do it; I have the opportunity to establish my own rhythm and schedule. And I can't do it. Just when I can reach out and feel the plan all coming together it is snatched out of my hands, high winds carrying it away. Why?
I want to be transformed. I am tired. Why can't I be transformed? It's not because I am tired. It's because I am afraid and I keep forgetting who will transform me. I think it's up to me. It's not. It's up to him. I need to pray. Cooperate. Be Still. Trust. Obey. Pray. Yes, I said pray twice, it bears repeating; it is the most important factor. When I pray consistently and constantly I remember who is in charge. Hint, it's not me!
This Lent I pray that we all trust in the transforming power of mercy and the love of our Father. Then, we can be transformed!
Copyright 2016 Deanna Bartalini
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Deanna G. Bartalini, M.Ed.; M.P.A., is a certified spiritual director, writer, speaker and content creator. She is the founder of the LiveNotLukewarm.com online community, a place to inform, engage and inspire your Catholic faith through live, interactive faith studies. Her weekly Not Lukewarm Podcast gives you tips and tools to live out your faith in your daily life.