“I thirst for you. Yes, that is the only way to even begin to describe My love for you. I thirst for you. I thirst to love you and to be loved by you—that is how precious you are to Me. Come to Me, and I will fill your heart and heal your wounds … Open to Me, come to Me, thirst for Me, give me your life — and I will prove to you how important you are to My Heart." (For the entire beautiful meditation, visit Ave Maria Radio.)How do I make myself believe in my heart what I believe in my head: that each ill-spoken word, each stubbornness of heart, each uncharitable thought is rupturing my relationship with my heavenly Father? The common garden variety of sin is really a big deal, no matter how little I want to make of it. The key, I think, is to learn to love God more. Because when we love, we instinctively shrink from causing offense (this is why I, relational being that I particularly am, perpetually scan the horizon to be sure all of my relationship boats are upright). How do we love better? By getting to know the person we love. How can we know God better? Myriad ways: by asking for the grace, by staying close to the Sacraments, by reading the Bible, by training our hearts to love what is good, by looking for God in each day, by praying and conversing with Him … basically, by showing up. Just show up via whatever means you are able and He will assuredly do what He does best: transform us by His grace, love, and mercy. As a priest taught me, I pray, “Lord, I love. Help my unlove.”
Copyright 2018 Amanda Woodiel
About the Author
Amanda Woodiel is a Catholic convert, a mother to five children ages 11 to 3, a slipshod housekeeper, an enamored wife, and a “good enough” homeschooler who believes that the circumstances of her life -- both good and bad -- are pregnant with grace. She leads a moms' group at her parish that focuses on simple and meaningful ways to live the liturgical year at home. Amanda blogs at In a Place of Grace.