
But here's what I realized: we have to want to be rescued. It's a real temptation to wallow in our spiritual poverty and recount to ourselves all of the things we dislike about ourselves. That must be resisted. How much better to say with confidence to Our Lord, "Come rescue me! Whatever I lack, you have in abundance. You are glorified in my weakness! So much the better that I have weaknesses so that you are glorified. I give myself to you."
Examine your conscience. I realized that most of the things I feel like I fail at are imposed by the culture or by myself -- not by our faith. Jesus said we must love one another. He did not say that my house must look like a magazine. The catechism says that I must teach my children the faith. It does not say that I must have perfect children. When I had the courage to truly examine why I felt like a failure, there was a lot of pride at root.
Sit in the presence of someone who loves you -- that is to say, the Lord. How easy it is to feel like a failure, mutter some lies to yourself, and move on to the next task! No, instead take some time to sit with Jesus and let his gaze of love heal you. And if you need something to think about, start with this: Jesus has a preference for the poor. Are you poor in housekeeping? Our Lord prefers you. Are you poor in ability to understand intellectual things? Our Lord prefers you. Are you poor in energy or sleep? Our Lord prefers you. Your poverty is your treasure.
I say this over and over: We are in a spiritual battle for our souls, and we must do whatever we can to reject the devil and his lies. Speak truth to yourself in your head and out loud! Do not be discouraged: Our Lord came for those in need of a doctor.
You, dear reader, are of such inestimable value that spiritual wars are waged for you. You are so cherished that God Himself came to ransom you. You are worth dying for. This is the truth, friend. You are beloved right now as you are. You are not a failure.
Copyright 2019 Amanda Woodiel
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About the Author

Amanda Woodiel
Amanda Woodiel is a Catholic convert, a mother to five children ages 14 to 6, a slipshod housekeeper, an enamored wife, and a “good enough” homeschooler who believes that the circumstances of life—both good and bad—are pregnant with grace. Her oldest son was diagnosed with cancer in the summer of 2022, which is providing plenty of opportunities to test that hypothesis.
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