I Believe! ... Right?

"I believe" by Stephanie Stovall (CatholicMom.com)

Image credit: Pixabay.com (2018), CC0/PD[/caption] For some months now, my prayer before the Blessed Sacrament has been “I do believe, help my unbelief.” (Mark 9:24) Even though I look up at the monstrance and physically see bread inside, I know it’s Jesus. I truly do ... I do. Do I? Yes. But ... really? Yes. I do. (eyes move side to side) It’s such a crazy huge thing to believe that I question how much I actually believe what I know I believe. 😊 Stepping out of my Catholic-ness and looking into a Blessed Sacrament Chapel ...we’re all insane. We’ve lost our minds. So, you’re telling me that little piece of bread is Jesus? That’s crazy. Not only that, but, there are people that sit in front of it for hours and just stare and pray?? We should all be admitted!

“This is a difficult statement; who can listen to it?” (John 6:60)

But ...

”Lord, to whom shall we go?” (John 6:68)

So, with faith, we stay with Jesus and we believe. We believe that inside the monstrance is the King of the World, even tho everything that we know tells us there’s no. way. that’s. possible. Have you ever heard of the Eucharistic miracle that occurred in Faverney, France in 1608? I read the story to my kids in the beautiful children’s book, Stories of the Blessed Sacrament, and I was bawling. Total ugly cry, had to put the book down to wipe my snot away, and keep crying, crying. I just kept thinking: Jesus ... that is You. It IS You! Please, help us believe and love You more! God knows we believe, but He wants to help our unbelief! He desires so strongly for us to love Him truly present in the Eucharist that He makes the Eucharist fly ... or even bleed real blood that has been scientifically tested and proved to come from a 33-ish-year-old man who has gone through severe trauma! Jesus is the Eucharist. How many times do we stop and actually think about this when going up for Communion? Or sitting for our weekly Adoration time? We are sitting with God. Holy. Moley. And what do we do about it? What do we do with this Truth? With this Reality? How much are we willing to give of ourselves to a God that is continually coming down from Heaven to give us this IMMENSE blessing? If we believe that Jesus is truly present in the Eucharist....how does that belief...that we say “Amen” to every Sunday, how is that affecting our life? If we believe that Jesus is truly present in the Eucharist...is spending an hour with Him on a Sunday enough? Does that seem appropriate, even? One hour a week and that’s it?

“So because you are lukewarm, and neither hot nor cold, I will spit you out of My mouth.” (Revelation 3:16)

I don’t know about you, but I don’t want to be spit out. So Jesus, please I beg You, help me believe more deeply than I ever have before, in Your True Presence.