I'm Starting with Me

Instead of looking to others to make changes in the world, Elizabeth Estrada decided to listen to the Holy Spirit and look at her own heart.

So much is going on today in our nation. I’m sure I’m not the only one that thinks we are falling apart in so many ways. We are facing a crisis with a pandemic that has caused us to pause and reflect.

It seemed like we were starting to see things get better with slowly reopening our churches and then one of God’s beloved children was murdered by someone who was called to protect him.

I’m not going to lie: I didn’t really know what was happening for a couple of days. I only watch the local news once a week for many reasons, but primarily because my anxiety can’t handle it -- too much bad news all at once.

In finding out what happened I felt so many things at once: sadness, anger, confusion, and some feelings I couldn’t really name. I couldn’t believe that this happened in 2020.

Every one of us has an opinion, a thought, and maybe we don’t. But I’m sure that God does. I think He’s crying and maybe even angry at what His children are doing to each other even after the lessons we have learned by the events we have lived through or what we learned in history class.

Instead of trying to come up with what the government should do at a local or national level, I have decided, the Holy Spirit has called me to start with me. Not the superficial me ,but the deep down and dirty me. I have really been reflecting on what are the things that, I not only believe, but I do.

Do I lock my car when I see a person of color in a neighborhood? Do I get upset when someone is speaking another language and I don’t understand what they are saying in an elevator?

I really want to dig deep. I don’t believe in coincidences. I believe that God is allowing us to go through this time for lessons that we all need to learn about ourselves. We can’t make a change in society if we aren’t really honest with ourselves.

None of us is perfect; we are all sinners. I don’t know what will happen in the days to come and I don’t know how things will change, but I do know one thing. I am going to ask the Holy Spirit to guide me to the places in my heart that need healing so that I can really see Jesus in every one person He created.

No questions asked.

I am going to ask the Holy Spirit to guide me to the places in my heart that need healing so that I can really see Jesus in every one person He created. #catholicmom